I was connected to a carecell where I found “angels” in the form of my spiritual parents and pastors who cared for me. They encouraged me to draw near to God. Slowly, I began to trust God again. My nightly lullaby became worship songs playing from my laptop. Attending weekend services and carecell meetings were my “spiritual fixes” to fill the emptiness. I found my self-worth again. And I started praying consistently, specifically that He would touch Chris in His amazing ways. Although I still had doubts over whether God could or would rescue my marriage, I continued to pray that God will bless my husband.
Dawn Thoughts of suicide crept into my mind as life became meaningless. I was a wreck.
And God answered my prayers! Chris had problems with his car and we would communicate using instant messaging (IM). I plucked up the courage to invite Chris to Rebounder. I wasn’t expecting him to come so readily because Chris had mentioned that he was uncomfortable to attend the same church as my family. To my surprise, he came. God touched him during the presentation. From then on, things started to mend quickly. Chris had earlier promised me a short vacation as a gift for my birthday and I asked if he was still keen. Thank God! Chris agreed, and we planned for a getaway to Genting Highlands. My spiritual parents reminded me not to put too much pressure on Chris and they prayed that I would stay strong in God. The trip turned out well and we managed to talk through our marriage issues. When I asked if he would consider moving back home, he asked for time to consider. Weeks passed, nothing happened. After more than one month, Chris finally moved home. He also joined me in church and visited my carecell. The wait was worth it. The journey of restoring our marriage has begun.
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