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me. Instead of communicating with her, I turned to my friends for comfort and to vent my frustrations. In these moments of emotional and spiritual weakness, the enemy preyed on me and I succumbed. I had an affair. Our marriage splintered and I decided I had enough. I walked out of our marriage. I rented a room as far from home as I could. With my newly regained “bachelor” status, I partied and lived a life of debauchery. There were nights when I would paint the town red, returned home to shower and went straight to work. I was “happy” but tired and drained on the inside. Needless to say, my performance at work suffered. But God, with His stubborn love, pursued me throughout my season of rebellion. He was constantly there, working silently in my life.

by Trinity Christian Centre. The night I attended, God spoke to me through the stories of these fallen heroes. As I watched them repent, turn to God and rebound victoriously with their second chances, guilt and shame overcame me. Could I have a second chance and rebound victoriously? When Pastor Dominic gave the altar call, I answered it. As a pastor prayed over me, I cried and re-dedicated my life to Christ. However, I struggled to believe that I could break free of my strongholds and salvage my marriage. Nonetheless, God persisted. It became impossible to ignore His constant promptings. I finally submitted to God in obedience. In that posture, I told God that I trusted Him and would do whatever He wished. If He wanted me to work on my marriage, I would.

While I resolved not to contact Dawn, somehow we still chatted on Messenger daily. Even though most of our conversations usually ended in anger and frustration, something in me simply wanted to connect with her. I did not realize then, that though I might have given up on my marriage, God and Dawn did not. My wake-up call came one night when I had a terrible nightmare. I could not recall what the nightmare was about but I do remember fearing for my life. I immediately turned to the Lord in prayer. Having studied in a mission school, saying “The Lord’s Prayer” is second nature to me. However, that night, when I needed it so badly, my mind went blank midway. Panicking, I spent the rest of the night on my laptop searching for the words of the prayer and kept repeating it to gain peace. It was at this point of my life that Dawn invited me to Rebounder — an evangelistic drama staged 33

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Trinitarian Magazine Issue 4/2011  

Trinitarian Magazine Issue 4/2011

Trinitarian Magazine Issue 4/2011  

Trinitarian Magazine Issue 4/2011