“a lot of parents are trying to mold [their kids] into these perfect human beings which don’t fuckin’ exist.”
the drug game. You’ve got some people that’ll double-cross you real quick, some people that don’t know how to act, people that know how to quadruple their money. Hustlers that can flip shit. But the biggest comparison is that you’re out here trying to get these people hooked on your shit; your product. That’s basically it, in a nutshell.
Without naming any names, have you seen any instances where rappers have destroyed their careers because of drugs? I haven’t had any personal experiences seeing an artist on that shit, but I’ve heard stories. A lot of these people are on cloud nine and they think it’s never gonna come tumbling down. When it does it fucks them up so bad, mentally and emotionally, that they’ve gotta turn to drugs to think they’re successful again. Everyone has addictions. What are yours? My problems are women, and liquor. I’m not an alcoholic, per say. I don’t drink every day, and it’s not like I have to drink when I wake up. But I got alcoholism in my blood, so I know that if I drink and drink and drink, by the time I’m thirty I’m gonna have to have that drink. I try to take it easy with that shit. I already caught a DUI. And groupies, I try to stay away from them because it’s a problem. I’ve had all my fun. I used to go on the road with Luke, I’ve seen a lot of shit. I learned a lot from that muthafucker. I know that pussy makes the world go ‘round, and like I tell women all the time, pussy is powerful. I mean, I fuck around sometimes, but for the most part I just stay to myself. I got a daughter and a son, and a baby mother that I love to death! That’s my heart, but she know I be fuckin’ around and all that bullshit. And at the end of the day, you know what’s gonna happen? Tables turn. Karma. As for these groupies out here, I just let the crew fuck around with ‘em. I think it’s usually the people that’s with the artist that fuck with groupies, just because they know they can fuck whatever’s there. And it’s fun to them. It was fun to me too, at one time. It’d be fun to me if fuckin’ J. Lo gave me a piece of groupie ass, that’d be beautiful. Your mentality changed? Oh, of course. Having children makes me go out there with that attitude, you know, it’s like I gotta get this shit. I gotta make this shit happen. And the way I’mma be with my daughter, it’s different. I can’t tell my daughter, “You can’t do this, you can’t do that.” She’s gonna be what she’s gonna be. I can’t ever be mad at her, ‘cause I love her to death. She could
turn out to be whatever she wants to be, I just want her to know that I understand. A lot of these women out here, and it’s fucked up, I know a lot of them – even my mother – were raped as young women. Being raped, that lowers their self-esteem. They feel like they’ve been stripped of their value and they just go out looking for love in all the wrong places. All they want is that affection, feel me? I know because of my mother. My mother, to this day, she’s still traumatized by that shit. What’s your relationship like with your father? I love my father to death. I talk to my father about everything. My father’s a real father. Not in the sense that he was there throughout my life – ‘cause he wasn’t, he was caught up in his own shit. But he’s a real father in the sense that we can sit down and talk real shit. He talks about what he used to do in the 80’s, I can talk about what I do now and what I used to do to get money and all that shit. You know, we just relate to each other. He sees me as him, back in the day. Now that you have kids, do you think you’ll be there for them? Oh fuck. I gotta be there. Because I don’t want them to live like that. I used to hate my father. If it wasn’t for my mother telling me, “Look, he’s sick,” I’d hate that nigga to this muthafuckin’ day. Being an alcoholic is a sickness, and my father was an alcoholic. But the more I grow and learn and work with people and hustle, the more I see that I’m just like him. So I don’t hold no grudge against him. Me, I’m very fortunate and very happy to be raised the way I was raised and live the life that I’ve lived, ‘cause it’s built me. It build my character. A muthafucker can’t tell me shit at the end of the day: I love the fact that my life is the way it is. If you could change anything, what would you change? We gotta be more open. Everything is so hush-hush. Some people won’t talk about sex or drugs, like it’s not a part of the real world. A lot of kids’ parents are trying to mold them into these perfect human beings which don’t fuckin’ exist. “Don’t do this, don’t do that.” They should just be honest. Tell ‘em, “I tried that when I was in college, and here’s what happened...” The kids’ll be like, “Oh, shit.” Just let them know that it’s alright to fuck up. But no, we’re trying to breed these perfect human beings. And their son is getting fucked up, fuckin’ everything raw, just to be like, “Fuck my parents.” And the daughter? Oh, God. You don’t even wanna know about the daughter. She’s running around fuckin’ having a great fuckin’ time, like a bird out of the cage. You know?